Do you remember?

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Do you remember the feeling of warmth on your face? The feeling of the sun beating down through the sunroof as you drive along those windy country roads in your little country town trying to get to the river. Do you remenber the way he looked at you? It was the feeling of summer love (I have yet to find a better kind of love...). Do you remember the happiness? Finally, there was somewhat of a plan, and you had some kind of direction in your life. Do you remember it? It was the best time in your life, when the questions had more answers, and even if they didnt, it didnt matter.

i wonder where that clarity from last summer has gone. For once in my life, I felt like I had some of it figured out. Some of it. And then things changed, I changed, my life changed, my goals changed, my plans changed, and my entire future turned into a huge blurr... where do i go next? I think of teaching, of nursing, theatre, art, writing... but what do i really want to do in my life? it's so hard to say. I've seen so many people in the past year, so many of my best friends who gave up their lives and have to struggle to get by each day- i want a career where i wont have to struggle.

i'm really just rambling...

Most of us plateau
when we lose the tension
between where we are
and where we ought to be.

- John Gardiner