and no one ever will...

self protrait, originally uploaded by PrincessEmily210.

oh what a rush of manic depressive craziness the past few weeks have been, or maybe just the past few months, years? it seems like so much is going on, swirling around in my head and my body, but i feel like there is absolutely nothing to say. nothing to write about. it all seems so pointless, you know? why would some random person even care about what i've been up to or what i've been thinking about? but i will tell you anyway--- ive been thinking about comfort, home, organization compared to complete clutter and having way too many possesions.
So I went through my clothes first and filled 5 trash bags to take to goodwill this morning. and books, and suitcases, stuffed animals, mosquito nets, coats, everything. i cleaned out. (then i scrubbed my shower, and my toilet... and the floor in my bathroom. for someone who doesnt shower often, my bathroom was FILTHY! )

i've also been wondering so much about relationships-- when do you know if it is right? when does that strange euphoric "i just met you i cant live without you" feeling fade away and when do you start getting into the thick stuff? the important things? i guess you just know when it happens, or maybe you are forced into it by life changing events, but i still wonder- is it too soon for little notes in his bed? too soon for spending every night together and planing things?

so thats my life lately....

how about you?