Tony, originally uploaded by PrincessEmily210.

I find such strength, but a huge deep vulnerability.

I am single.
For the past few years it seems like i have been emotionally, physically, or in any way connected seriously to someone else. Whether it was Justin studying abroad with my heart, or Mike and the secrecy of our relationship, then Greg. Or Ben, Graham, Nate, or anyone else in between, I have been attached and commited (at least emotionally) to someone.

I lost Greg on Tuesday, and I've been so grateful ever since. Greg was truly the first time I felt love, real love flowing through my being every time I was near him. Greg taught me so many things about myself, and i realized how selfish i felt for being sad. yes, part of me is curhsed and wants to me on my knees at his door begging him, but overall I am moving on. I know this may not be the end of things between us, but for now I realized that i need this too. I need to be alone. I need to work on me. I need to stop feeling obligated to make time for everyone but myself I only wish his friendship would last...


Love, loss, relationships, and people have been on my mind so much lately. how much is a right amount to give of yourself to any one person?
I cant find a good balance yet.