Moving with the ebb and flow....

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I'm trying lately... but it seems so difficult. The idea of "go with the flow." In hindsight I feel like that kind of defined this year for me- "just go with the flow, change with your situations and learn to get through them and survive." But in the past month or so it has become so hard, almost impossible.
I keep wondering in my head- when does a person reach that point where they are ready, really truly ready to let go of a relationship that they know in their heart isnt over? I've been trying to give space, trying to voice my concerns. But I have been shut out, completely cut off for reasons that are beyond myself.
I'm finding right now that it is really difficult for me to find that light in everyone. I am having trouble seeing through the cloud and smoke,(I can't see people's souls the way i used to. I've temporarily lost that belief that each and every one of us is beautiful and soulful.)ot see past the strings of judgement and a need to make everyone better. I never actually did make anyone better. I think all I have done is put myself in situations where i say "so- and - so did this and that to me, and i think it is hurting him as a person, and i know this issue will come up again later in life, so i should help them to see the fault so they can fix it." But really and truly all i am doing is getting furious with them, and using that as an excuse to tell them "you pissed me off." I have yet to find a place for my anger.
Meanwhile, what i should be doing- instead of aproaching the subject with anger, frustration, and complete self doubt- is to just be honest. I want to be able to feel someone enough that i dont have to tell them- "dude, when i fell in the toilet seat the other night half asleep i was really pissed" However, i know this is a really idealistic goal, and pretty impractical.
I am reading a book right now called "The Hippie Trip" and while i really discourage the use of that title because in reality, very few true hippies exist today and those who are labeled as such are more often than not just lazy stoners or junkies. But it is such a fascinating book.It was written in 1968, so it has the truth about hippies. Rather than a look back at the impact that the counterculture had, it predicts. It looks at the hippie counterculture both in urban areas and in the farm like communes from a sociological perspective. The author tells all these whacky stories of the people he met through his "research", people whose whole life is based around the idea of seeing that light and soul in each of us and loving us not despite our incredible flaws but because of them. I think that is the major idea of that movement that i can relate to the most in my life. Imagine living a life where anger didnt come up... Imagine being able to train yourself to feel compassion for even those people who have wronged you so much...

where does everyone else put their anger?