it should be raining...

rainy easter flags, originally uploaded by PrincessEmily210.

the past two days have been too much to take. it is so sunny out, but inside i feel very dark. maybe not dark so much, but all the color kind of mixed together into one incomprehensible blob.

I had tea last night with one of my best friends. it was so nice to sit down and be honest. i just sat down and said "im feeling so down today" and then for an hour or so we just talked about it all.

it's so difficult to be in this place though because i cant see what goes in front of me. where do i go next? how do i get myself out of this funk?
it just seems like everyone has something huge to deal with lately and it's not fair.

(life isnt fair.)

but i wake up the next day bright and early and think about going to class. life moves on whether i am ready for it or not.