For what was...

sunny day late sept, originally uploaded by PrincessEmily210.

"go for long walks, indulge in hot baths. question your assumptions, be kind to yourself, live for the moment, loosen up, scream, curse the world, count your blessings, just let go, just be." -carol shields

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A beautiful day outside, sunny and in the 60s or 70s. It is days like this that tease me and make me want that ridiculous summer humidity where you cant even BREATHE it is so hot. soon enough, soon enough it will come.
But I have been thinking a lot today about where I was this time last year. Who I was. I realize now that I spent this whole year pretty much trying to get back to where i was in july/august. I have been trying to be who i was then (although, looking back that was the only time i felt truly myself in my own skin), trying to get to who I was with, what I did... trying trying trying to get back to that place in my life. And I feel embarassed. I was hesitant to write about this but i think we all have to share those embarasing weird things about us so we can feel like we arent the only strange ones...
But I can't get it back, so I am trying now to move forward and figure out--- where do i go from here? who am i now?


bless you!

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