Over the hump...

everythings gone green, originally uploaded by PrincessEmily210.

A sudden clarity came. After weeks of being unable to create anything, and almost months of being unable to love anyone else. I feel very calm in what were, for a while, the two struggles in my heart.
Inspired by the wonderful Keri Smith, I have started doing a daily collage. Kind of like morning pages (from the artist's way) except with collages. I've been waking up early, well reasonably early by my standards (hey- 9:30 or 10 isnt too bad), and heading right into my little studio space to create. It has been a completely silly and fun time- I decided to try not to have attachment to them- to just build and build and spill and spill until I feel like they are done- or i will just stop and revisit the next day. I dont have to write insightful poetry on every page, so i feel less of a vulnerability and less pressure to have the words and letters flow just right... it has been amazing.
and my heart feels so open. i have let go of so much of the attachment to previous relationships and i have completely surrendered to the idea that what will happen will happen and I cant change that or the way people feel. and i am enjoying long cuddles into morning and silly games between two people who care about each other so much it hurts. :-)

Sometimes we have to learn to let go and let life bring what it will- in art, in love, in work.... at least thats how i feel.