your rules, they dont apply to me...

greg and me, originally uploaded by PrincessEmily210.

I'm finding myself in that begining stage again. Climbing the walls of the womb trying to peek my head out and learn to breathe on my own, or at least- with him.
The begining of decisions, of growing up and into myself. I am at the begining of a really fun relationships and a semester to hopefully engulf the last one. but it's hard! there are all these lines, these boundries and i have to work to figure out when i am crossing them- figure out what is too far, too much, too soon. and it's all rushing by so fast. so ridiculously fast. but i think im doing some things right. some major life changes are happening inside of me and i think this time i'm loose enough to go with it. to shake and move with the rhythm of my insides. and give in, surrender to what will happen.

a very very happy new year to everyone, i hope that 2005 brings you the time of your life.
i leave you with a link and a lovely little list.

http://crookedsmilemusic.com (so what if my boyfriend is the bass player, i still love the band!)

and... 10 things i am so grateful for in 2004:
10- my health, and my ability to write my own story
9- the amazing friendships i have grown into... tony, meredith, sabrina, andrea, greg, justin, liz, sarah, christian, kerem, it goes on and on..
8- my family and all that we have been through together
7- accupuncture, and the life it is leading me into-- the window it opens to my soul
6- the time and opportunity to have fun and go crazy
5- my amazing adventures throughout the country- in maine, california, vermont, philly, etc..
4- the amazing love that i felt, and the experiences it brought me, the amazing lengths i had to grow to get through it and all that i learned from him
3- whole foods
2- my choice! the fact that i could lay in bed for all those hours just deciding- where will i live? what school? with whom? so many decisions!!
1- the self clarity and understanding within the confusion