Settle down.

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I have always been the type of girl to say "I am never getting married" and "I am never having my own kids." I always thought that I could live my life on my own, I didn't need anyone else. I thought that I didn't want to be with the same person for the rest of my life- what a concept: to be attached permanently to someone, spending every day, every night, every tear, and every smile with ONE person. Let alone to create a new life with this person- to make a human being. What a commitment!! I could never handle the thought of it.

And then I realized last week, I have met someone who I want to settle down for. I want to cancel plans and let go of things because I want a life with him. I want to create another person with him... What a thought that is- to have something tangible every day to see to remind me of the way I feel for him. WOW.

So what is it? What is it about this guy (who I dont even know if I am attached to) that makes me want to drop everything and that changes the way I feel about everything? I dont know. But I do know that the world looks different when I am with him, and even when I think about him. All the desperation and sadness vanishes with the thought of him- all the fighting and injustice in the world vanishes when I think about living with him and being with him.

(and then i realize that i am a silly little girl- that if i told him any of this he would be terrified and stop calling again)