and then it all came together.
weird isnt it?
i hadnt really written much about him in here out of fear- fear of repetition, of people who knows him reading it, of many things... But then all of a sudden I wrote about him so much- i couldnt help myself.
and then it all fell into place.
spending the night with him, just feeling him so close. those kisses i waited so long for, the way we feel together- i spent so much time wondering what it would be like... our skin together was the most beautiful thing i have ever seen. there really are no words to explain the beauty, sheer euphoria of life with him.
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thank you for your comments-- it really means so much. i wish i could get them more often, but i think because of that when people do leave messages they just mean so much!!!
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
light in the dark
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with the risk of sounding cliche- how you feel is all too familiar with me. this poem has always stood by me, reminding me that learning comes with all of these emotions of missing and letting go of someone:
After a while you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul.
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
and company isn't security.
(Kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises.)
After awhile you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes open,
with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain
and the inevitable has a way of crumbling in mid-flight.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns
if you stand too long in one place.
So, you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone else to bring you flowers.
And you learn you really can endure,
that you really do have worth.
You learn that with every good-bye comes the dawn.
Hi! This is as good an entry as any to make my first comment. I linked to your journal from jen gray's, i believe, and added it to my favorite blogs list. I am also a fan of sabrina ward harrison and keri smith and others. I'm 20 and in college to be an art teacher. keep up the lovely entries!
if you're at all interested, i have a livejournal, http://www.livejournal.com/users/howtospellrock
have a great day!
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